so I’m watching this tv show and the climax scene takes place at the top of
a skyscraper and the girl who is whimsical and quirky and interesting is
very comfortable with sitting on the edge of building very freely whereas
the guy is cautiously staying back and verbally expressing his discomfort
with the fact that she is so close to the edge and she says, “the only way
I’ll fall is if I jump.”
and there’s a pause.
“that’s why you’re afraid”
“because a tiny part of you wants to jump. because it would be so easy”
"but I don’t want to jump, so I’m not afraid"
…and I guess it just really struck me because I used to not be afraid,
just like she did. But not anymore.